Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Mothers Day

So I am super excited that it's my first mothers day coming up.... mothers day will always be special since that is the day Johnny proposed to me but its even more special now that I am a mother. I never thought I would be celebrating this day myself. Now I understand how special it is to be a mother and I also just wanted to say thanks to my mother and let her know that I love her lots and appreciate all she does for me....

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a Mom
I had complete control of:
My thoughts
My body
And my mind
I slept all night

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests
Or give shots
I never looked into teary eyes and cried
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down
I never knew something so small
Could affect my life so much
I never knew that I could love someone so much
I never knew I would love being a Mom

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body
I didn't know how special it could feel to sooth a crying baby
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes
to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonder
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Smiley




I still can't believe how big Avery has gotten but I am loving her every minute. More of her personality comes out each day and she is just so much fun. She has started talking and smiling alot more which cracks me and Johnny up. She gives us a reason to smile and laugh each day.